Fuck ‘em up, @GooseTrego!
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Saw on the gram today is results day. We’re behind you @GooseTrego. Sending all the positive vibes out today.
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We’re all showing up today (and every day), Goose!
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CLEAR SCANS!
I’ll report more tomorrow on what we’re feeling, but wanted to share with my refuge family.
You all mean so much to me.
Thank you so much for letting me be honest, vulnerable, and weird.
I absolutely cherish my NLU family.
Keep showing up!
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I love you more than anyone probably should love someone that they’ve only interacted with via a golf adjacent message board!
You are an inspiration, truly!
Way to keep kicking cancer’s ass!
God bless!
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Oh hell yes! So happy for you! Keep showing up!
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I met him once, it’s everything you think it would be and then some.
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Great news Goose! Been excited to hear this!
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New year, new goals, but we can Keep Getting Dubs
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Saw your wife’s post about this on Instagram and started tearing up with joy. Which is crazy because you and i have never met, but goddamn this was such amazing news. Keep kicking ass!
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Fuck yeah homie!
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Now that the holidays are over, I wanted to give a little more insight into the last few weeks.
I’ve struggled with being present throughout the last few weeks. Honestly, I still don’t think I’m fully “settled in” with everything.
Clear scans obviously is a huge relief, but it comes at a price. The only other time I’ve hit the 3 month mark, the doctors actually missed a spot on my liver that was cancerous.
As friends and family celebrate around me, I felt like a fraud because I couldn’t match their energy and the joy they shared. I felt like I was pretending.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m so thankful to be clear, but I can’t help but to be cautious. In the almost 4 years since my diagnosis, we’ve grown accustomed to bad news.
The physical battle we’ve overcome. The mental battle is constant and heavy.
We’re still doing labs and pump flushes every few weeks. I have to have a colonoscopy every year for the next 10 years. Even though I’m not on active treatment, all the devices in my body have to stay there until 5 years of clear scans.
Cancer is on my mind every day.
Even typing all this out, the voice in my head says “Shut up. Stop complaining. No one cares.”
But today, I’m ignoring that.
One of my New Year’s resolutions was to be more kind to myself. I want to change the narrative and start showing myself more grace.
I want to challenge you to do the same.
Most resolutions revolve around physical health, which is great, but try to add some mental health goals as well this year.
I’m thankful for each test. I’m thankful for every trial. I’m thankful to still be here, especially with my golf family.
I take a lot of pride in living with as much positivity and laughter I can. But, it’s time I take a little more care of what I tell myself throughout the day.
I know the demon on my shoulder is wrong. You all and so many others remind me of that everyday.
So… what’s next?
- Start each day with a positive self affirmation.
- Check in with my people
- Ask for help
- Be honest with where I’m at.
- Keep showing up.
I want to be a better husband. I want to make this world a better place. I want to play more golf. I want to make people laugh. I want to keep telling my story.
That’s what I want for 2025. I’m not letting cancer decide for me anymore.
Love y’all.
Keep showing up.
You’re good enough. I promise.
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Thank you for taking the time to share that.
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You could not be more wrong on this. We absolutely do care, and seeing you fight - and struggle and be transparent about your struggle - is so fucking inspiring, you have no idea.
I’m not a big resolution guy, but I love your idea of starting every day with some grace and self-affirmation. I can’t think of a single person who wouldn’t have a happier day if they did this, and I’ll do my very best to model this behavior.
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Keep showing up!
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Dearest Refuge Family,
Wanted to send some encouragement your way this morning! I’m so thankful for this group of humans.
Keep showing up. Keep fighting.
Love yall,
Goose
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Need those prayer warriors!
We had labs drawn on Wednesday at my routine pump and port flush. My CEA levels (a strong indicator of cancer) have doubled. It’s still within range, but barely. The concern is the jump so quickly.
Instead of waiting the usual 8 weeks to test, they want to have me back in 2 weeks from now to draw another round of labs and test the level. The results from this lab will determine moving up the scans.
We reached out to the Oncologist on Wednesday directly after and we didn’t get a response until late last night. We’re frustrated.
Thanks for allowing me to get this out and share. Thanks for helping me carry this weight.
I was praying for patience and it looks like I’m in the perfect spot to be practicing it. Just want clarity. We want good news, but I’m ready if we don’t.
Keep showing up.
-Goose
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You’re getting more than that - you’re getting a huge god damn hug from me and countless others right now, Goose.
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Obligatory…
…Fuck Cancer.
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